Follow-up to cosas pequeñas:

• The little blog engine slowly grows more capable. It’s been nice.
• Decided to turn that homelab server into a gaming PC instead, haha psyche! Instead decided to learn better how to cross-build things and operate k3s without trying to shove everything through a NixOS module.
• Ketamine infusion probably happening around August.
• Clonidine effectiveness wore off, increased dose, wore off, increased dose, wore off. Just saw my psychiatrist again and he, like every other specialist, is “drawing a blank”. Going to keep increasing the dose of that/try not to fall over/try not to run out and get hit with rebound hypertension, consult again in 4 weeks. Not feeling super good about this but wcyd
• Autumn has been lovely, hello winter!

Rest in peace, Charlotte.

Entire body aching. Shoulders, elbows (both strong), wrists, fingers joints, back of hand (right esp), knees, upper and lower legs top, back; feet all over. I will run this body into the ground if I have to, not out of malice, but out of love for my own existence, our own, its own existence and refusing to let this sap my quality of life. It is clearly not responsive to either rest and taking it easy, or staying moving and stretching and being active. It is caused by neither, helped by neither. I will rest as much as I like, but then I will work and push as hard as I want. Stimulants and cannabis help me do both, and it will rely on them to help with both. To do otherwise is to waste the gift of opportunity it has.

It is on a mission.